Daydreaming

This entry was also written before Ted left Lake Butler on October 16th.

You would think that because I’m in a cell with nothing to do that I’d be thinking of 100 different things to write about. Well that’s not true.

Me being in a cell gives me pretty much nothing to write about.

I could write about how me and my cellmate got so bored that we have started playing games like tic-tac-toe, hangman, rock-paper-scissors, and the box game.

What I spend most of my time doing though is daydreaming about getting out (as you can imagine). I think about what it’s going to be like doing things I’m not used to, like going to church, holding a job, going back to school, etc…

I try to imagine what a single day will be like for me where I’m not selling drugs, getting high, or just life in general not being part of a gang.

Every day I spend time reading the Bible praying for the strength to do right. I’d be lying to you if I said I don’t have my doubts and that it’ll be easy.

Every day I see people here in prison who have been here 4 – 5 times before and some people more. If all those people can’t change their lives, it shows me that the odds are against me.

While sitting in the county jail, I made a promise to do right though and I’m giving it all I’ve got this time. Plus I’ve got a lot of help from God.